call me a copy cat

I've had so much fun reading others' posts like this and so here you go . . ..

7 Random Things

1. This semester I started (Very part-time) back to school for my Masters of Art in Counseling at Lincoln Christian College's Seminary. How God is going to use this? - I'm not quite sure yet. This has been a step of faith. My heart is in more intensive residential style treatment but I don't have a desire to ever work full time away from home. So since this will be a very long process (I'd like to maintain a sane household and marriage), I've leaving the end of this journey to God. I couldn't do this without a husband who at times I feel God has given a greater passion for me to pursue this than I have and a willingess to pick up my loose ends - he is a gift.

2. Speaking of school - when I went back to finish my bachelor's degree after Ryan and I were married, I started having a recurrent "nightmare:" It my senior year of high school and due to some struggles in my life, I am fighting to be able to graduate and not have to be heldback another year (and may I mention I'm engaged to Ryan too in my nightmare?!?!?!). It's awful. Crazy thing? It stopped when I graduated. Crazier thing? It's come back since I went back to school for my master's!

3. As I've gotten "older" I have become more introverted and more of a homebody. I'm not sure if this comes from being put more out of my element (and therefore not as comfortable) or just my personality evolving from some hard experiences I've been through. I believe it's some of both. People knowing me, especially growing up, can be surprised by this at times as they would consider me a "people person". It's made transitioning into what seems like a very large church (I grew up in Detroit) a rollercoaster at times. I'm working on making myself step out more. Mark's family night on fellowship was good for my heart to hear the other night. Hmmm . . .I think that one will count for #4 too.

5. I've been much more of a "Clingy" mom than I expected to be (or said I would be). Maybe that's not the right word but for now that's what I'll use. I don't care who holds her. I don't care if I don't see her. It's not that I really worry others will do something wrong . . .I just don't always feel like leaving Ava. I still prefer to hold her myself. I knew I'd love being a mom but I think I was unprepared (as I think any mom is) how incredibly fun and awesome of an experience it is. So it's not always fun for me to leave her. I always enjoy the time away, it's just thinking about it before hand that sometimes it sounds more fun to stay home as a family or as her and I. I do, I have, and I will continue to - for my marriage. For my sanity. For her. I'm also not niave enough to think it will always stay this way. : )

6. It is a big struggle at times for me to live far away from my mom.

7. Wow - some of those were a little deeper than I intended. : ) So let's see . . .I love broadway. In my dream world I am an incredibly talented singer and dancer with a starring roll in a hit broadway show. Like I said, my dream world. I told Ryan I would settle for a long wknd sometime where we hit as many broadway shows as possible each day. : )